I got an email and along with that email a photo in that vacancy for an Assistant Professor
Since when photos started coming in Assistant Professor vacancy?
On that, this photo caught my attention
What's this?
Kinda saying give me a caption?
And instantly answer came, Nasty Nose?
Then mind said, Bloody Nose better I guess?
Then another, Softy Khoj, Bloody Nose?
And many such captions were in mind
But
A small message along that email was the crux of that email like summerized in few words. It was empathy or? Sometimes, we become so much concerned about some not so good things that start questioning even empathy?
I checked that website, alongwith some other such institutes vacancy websites in that region and found most posts had some interesting photo. I noticed something like that first time.
Do not know why, I did not like the date and month of that email. It was perhaps not so good indication. Since when I started reading emails like that? As wrote in earlier post, since last few years. The time, I started understanding lilbit about political codes. On that, that region had so many danger warnings earlier also.
I replied to that email.
Then after some days, got another vacancy. Then one more.
And on that a bhadaam bhadaam article somewhere. What the hell was happening? Just thinking too much and taking no action? Or better to wait and watch?
Bihar elections were nearby and so much was happening in the surrounding, even in my own home, not so good. Fear was already in mind, can these elections be without any violence or any such drama? They did not.
Some such dramas happened as it was looming like on head. My brother on 8th said, I am going on a trip to Dalhousie with friends, give me 10,000. And don't know why mind was saying, probably he would not come back alive. Drama had already started. A skelton, white skin already turned black due to alcohol, no mind of his own and so called friends and trip. And trip to where? Dal miyan vibhaag? I did not give him any money. But he went.
During this time a few other dramas happened. Chintoos-pintoos here are too much thaali and politics of this or that side keep on using and abusing them, even without their knowledge. And these people don't even realize that. He came back on 12th and I was thinking like, oh, they sent you back alive? Should say thanks? But who were they, is an important question?
Anyway, back to email
After three emails, fourth was an invitation to attend some online seminar. Again title was interesting and one word in that title even more interesting, Modern Cells. It was like saying, it was not the warfare but cellfare? Don't know why after watching so many dramas in the surrounding, I was not feeling like to attend this online seminar. On the day of seminar, I noticed something, which created more curiosity. What kind of seminar is that? Is something special or just some random invitation? I thought to watch that later as most seminars recordings were there on that website. And I sent an email with a request, to provide the link of that recording so that can be watched later. And do not know why, I started watching the movie, The Matrix Resurrections. I am not a movie buff and watch movies rarely. mostly after reading reviews. The movie was not of my interest and I closed that website just after few minutes.
Meanwhile, I got the email reply. I got the link to check for that recording. I clicked the link and what was that? What kind of matrix? Oh, everyone was live and watching and listening to me? Or some people in between, who were managing all this? It seemed some interesting seminar. It was like that election day, when some media person was kinda interacting live even when I had no such idea. And I clicked to register to attend the seminar. Though time was saying, probably, you would not be registred. It's kind of rude to send a registration request when it must had already been started. But to my surprise, I got the link to register and I did. I was there in the seminar but closed my mike and camera. Again like some rude student or some curious faculty? More than the talk, noticed the way people were coming onscreen or going away or puting themselves online in certain position. Informal settings of west applies now a days even to some events or talks of ours?
2019 workshop in MDU and VC talk and Miss Dangi and like all cameras were on me! I was feeling too uncomfortable then. These were not like normal cameras, but looked too abnormal to me. Then somewhere read even a full article on this miss? I could not understand since when authorities started talking like that with their faculty? Miss? In our part of world? Only heard Dr. or for juniors direct name or surname. Though that was rare I guess, as except that day, a few times whenever I met VC, he said beta? But till now have become habitual of such informal ways of official settings? Though, still don't feel comfortable in informal settings of professional world, at least in our part of world, where it is still not so common. Yes, the talk was interesting even then. And I requested to provide a copy or link of that recording even then but did not get. Why? Don't know or historical truths of this or that side party, they don't feel like to be in public domain?
Lilbit irritations of local cultural conditioning and unnecessary blah, blah?
Most important point still not in this post. What was that?
Attack. What kind of attack? Have patience for next post?
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