I am in a Wonderland!

It is a different kinda wonderland, I never ever even thought about and dealing with different kinda creatures, wonders. 

One Police

Second Politics

Both seem match each other quite well. Both happened out of nowhere. Both seem just killing time. Both seem are difficult to deal. Both are non-human kinda stuff -- though exceptions are everywhere. Both belong to -- Paani bharne gaye rules, kinda stuff! 

But how both happened to me? Somehow I chose both? Or should I say somehow they happened to me? Or should I say first happened and second I said to OK! Lets try. It is only one year deal. Anyways. I am there to learn and teach both.

About first, you must have read a lot in last so many posts, if you are a regular reader of this blog. What's going at that front? Well, will write in detail in some other post soon. 

Second, politics happened due to this upfront, straightforward and fear-none nature's gift, I guess. I was the choice of my current department to fight for this post and old departments -- where I did my PG and Ph.D. I never ever imagined people at University level could be even like that, I am dealing right now. It is a different kinda experience. Good as well as bad. Good thing is that I got a chance to interact with so many different people from the University especially outside this Life-Sciences zone. Bad is, politics even at University level is politics, do not expect any standards even if it belongs to teaching community.

Since last few weeks, there is a try to be myself, to be in my own comfort zone. Fest season holidays, friends, kiddos, marriage of some near and dear ones, lil-bit shopping and leave are helping in that. More holidays and more leave gonna boost that spirit zone. I am back to lil-bit reading and writing and that virtual travelling. 

Misuse of Surveillance Technology

We are living in a naked world. Public is in dark. Just a mobile in your hand means a spy with you almost 24hrs! What surveillance technology is doing with public is the worst kinda violations of human rights. These people are not just recording and storing our calls/Internet surfing data on mass scale but misusing people's personal data against them to manipulate their personal and professional life. People handling this surveillance are misusing that data day by day. How? 

If a person at IG, Commissioner level has some grudge against you or even if different views than yours then check for yourself, what he can do:

He can know and analyze your life up to the extent, probably even you have not, by stalking you 24hrs! Naturally only a sick person can do that. But then all kinds of sick are all around.

He can check your surrounding, family, friends, friends of friends, relatives details the same way.

He can check and analyze what you are talking and discussing with whom.

He can analyze what kind of relations you have with each and every person in your surrounding.

He can share all your personal details with his circle and so called friends, family and relatives or whosoever he wants.

He can check all your income and expenditure details.

He can check all your online surfing including mails, social sites, passwords, banking details, tax returns, old mails, blogs, e-purchase and whatever you listen or watch.

He can check what you typed and then deleted. Once typed, means that info has been transferred permanently to these people.

He can check which song you listen and how many times and at which sec. you reversed that back! Now even to listen a song you have to think?

He can know all your likes and dislikes, all your sizes and brands, non brands.

He can know where you are at a particular time and what are you doing.

If you are not talking on phone with anyone but your phone is nearby, he can listen all your conversation.

Even if your phone is switched off but battery is there in that phone that person still can listen you.

He can watch you through so called mirrors from sky, satellites, cameras into your home, office.

He can tell what you are wearing at a particular time, eat, cook even in your home. Now what kinda bug, mirrors this person/s has installed into your home or office, only they can tell better. But why they will?
If these people wanna irritate you then they can send those pop-ups on all those sites you open, with the messages you hate. See how much time such people have?

He can check out with whom you have what kind of problems and where you can be vulnerable!

He can tell when you sleep and wake up, go for bath or refresh yourself. What he cannot? Only, cannot cut your head, brain to know what the heck is going there. If these people could do that, surely they had done without any guilt or shame.

Surveillance technology means 24hr watch! Yes! You are in worst kinda cage. At least in cage people can understand your situation but here even to make people understand things you have to make efforts.

A person or people who have so much information about anyone can be dangerous in so many ways. What if you come across some secrets of so called highly placed people? What if you have different views than these people, different lifestyle than they believe? What if you have different ideology, political views? What if you have some kinda fractions or they have any kinda grudges against you? Only God can save you!  These people can try to blackmail you, harass you, judge you. Based on that judgement can divulge with all kinda mirch-masala and twists and turns, all those so called details the way they want, just to defame you publicly. Not just that they can make you mental by telling so minute details about your own life, body or problems, till now you have not given even a thought.

Question is: Is that person or these people have all these rights?
That's what happening with me since early 2012, AT LEAST.

और सबसे बड़ी बात -- इतना माथा मारने के बावजूद एक छोटे से मच्छर से परेशान 

डिस्को दीवाने तो सुना था परन्तु यहाँ तो मास्को दीवाने -- आँहाँ! 

Brasil

People are busy in shaking their mind on the name of this FUFA. 

Oops FIFA! 

Forget FUFA or FIFA and lets shake a leg.  

But I can only watch some people doing dance on such songs, as I don't know how to shake a leg. Kinda नाच न जाने आँगन टेढ़ा :)

        So here is Brasil

Start dancing, I am watching ;)

Dare! Change!

Those days are passe?

A women inside is kinda daring and compelling. You have to do this. You have to shed some inhibitions. You have to go through some soul tearing kinda torture; if

Yes! If you wanna fight this! It is not just for the sake of yourself but what you believe in. Leave the comfort zone!

Dare-Change!

Hope we are in a better India!

My Salute to Women Power!

Suna hai, "औरत ही औरत की दुश्मन होती है" BUT experienced no-one can be a better dost than women!

Time and again, I am amazed the way, I found myself surrounded by women, as a support in challenging time. Best and close friends, where you can share anything under the sun and who can understand you better than anyone else. Sis-in laws, who acts not just a family support but at times friends also. 

Colleagues and senior ladies, especially the ones who watched your transformation from those students days to a scholar and then following their steps in their own profession. And those ladies who acted as a guiding force themselves in their respective fields and directly or indirectly encouraged and recognized your potential. Being a blogger myself I should not forget inspiring blogger ladies in this blogging neighbourhood. They may be writing on different topics but somehow balance and at times, even overpower the negative vibes, we experience from real world, by their "Be Yourself Attitude"! Thanks to all these sweet ladies!

It does not mean to underestimate the importance of males in life as my inspiration force and powerhouse has been still a male, my grandpa. But do not know why somehow the current episode marked a bad imprint on mind, I guess for life.  

इस हमाम में सब नंगा है!!

It was in the early months of 2012, when I started feeling uncomfortable about some posts on some FB wall. That FB wall was of then IG, CID. I was in his friend list due to some good impression (Honest and blah blah) given about him by some colleague. But in very short time that impression turned into depression. Day by day, those sick and filthy posts kept on attacking me and people in my surrounding harder and harder especially my friends. Within short time, this person intruded in my life to unbelievable extent. I was like how it was possible. Initially I discussed all that with close friends, then more friends, then cousins and finally family. 

This person came to the University as a chief guest in some program and the whispers were in the air that he had been specially invited by then Vice Chancellor, Professor Ramphal Hooda. At that time, some media was after Vice Chancellor due to corruption charges against him. What conspired in that meeting, only these people can tell better. But with time, those corruption charges kinda faded just like any other corruption case in India. That Vice Chancellor completed his term and University got new Vice Chancellor. This IG, CID became CP. Till that time I had deleted him from my friend list due to his day by day filthy, offensive language (now almost all those posts especially written in 2012 either kept private or might be deleted by him!). I thought all that would stop but more and more worst kinda personal attacks kept on increasing either due to this or that excuse. Finally, I deleted my FB profile but after some time, on friends insistence made another and decided to fight back. 

Many strange things happened kinda if you cannot convince then confuse. Shower blessings, directly or indirectly support against some authorities, wherever I had some fractions or arguments or differences, give moral support and demoralize, show compassion and then tell I was not just listening to all your calls but even when you had your phone nearby! If that was not enough, it was kinda watching you in your office, on road, in market and even in your home! You were wearing so and so, under-dressed or overdressed. You were with this or that person or group or in some meeting or class! Whenever I wrote something against all those offensive posts, he tried to demonize me on this or that excuse. He hit all those whoever supported me directly or indirectly. And he was/is not alone in all this drama. There is a gang. Some people are supporting openly and some acting as a back up team. With time, it was kinda making a profile of my strengths and weaknesses and a try to break at mental level. Just recently, I realized things reached up to physical stalking! Right now this person is IG, Telecom. Is not it strange that even now he has access to my all internet activities along with phone?

Instead of my professional subjects, I started reading how to tackle bullies, how anyone could listen your every call? Could listen you even when you were not on call but just phone was nearby? How anyone could watch you just anywhere? And answers were kinda, ghosh, we are living in a naked world. Public is in dark. Even more surprising was, whatever I read or searched in these almost two years, just to get answers for my own questions, this person indirectly helped me by giving clues! Those clues were kinda wire-tap, prism, kinda watching from ten story building, cloudy eyes etc. Simple, governments across the world are using tax payer's money on mass surveillance, not against terrorists but against their opponents. Mass surveillance against terrorists is just an excuse to hype and to fool people and keep all this shit private, away from public eyes. Now these opponents could be anyone from economic rivals to political rivals to common people like you and me. 

Fight for Rights

Day by day, I am watching around, this or that gal arguing, fighting, crying while amidst so called own people. But she is smiling while going away from those so-called own people having her own bitter experiences. I tend to think what is the problem and where? All responsibilities lie with gals and almost all these guys are dictators? All so-called customs are against gals and almost always favor guys? Is this mere generation gap or something beyond that? Are all these gals too hi-fi, too demanding? In almost all such cases, I found myself in support of these gals and automatically against such type of guys. Then be it someone my own or someone else in the surrounding. Why? May be being born and raised in this very surrounding, on that being a female myself, I can empathize and co-relate somehow with these gals.

I am an alien for some in this very surrounding. A bit too hi-fi for their too narrow psyche (some literal psychics). However, still I feel, somewhere, there is some relation with these gals. I am somehow related to them. May be it is kinda, we are part of the same system. This system is kinda some game and we have different levels. So we can relate ourselves and understand the situations better. Probably, I jumped up a few levels at birth itself, in this too narrow surrounding and then was protected by some heavenly-shield in the form of my grandpa. When grandpa left this world, I think he ensured himself that I was able enough to take care of myself. Probably, many of these gals were not so lucky and still somehow fighting for their basic rights? Or may be so many of these are also able enough to take care of themselves. They are able to take care of themselves much better than these dictator kinda stuff can even think. Amusing aspect of any such drama is dual nature of these creatures. Or may be they are unable to put in place their dictates in their own homes on their own daughter, sister or in some cases even wife? Such people then try to throw their frustration elsewhere? Seems true!

Mature people throw away lil-lil egos and take care of their priorities by giving themselves as well others a breathable space. While stupid ones keep on dragging silly shit all around just to show their worthless weight. Worst is when you watch any such drama happening to the next generation. Best part is when you see that next generation kicking such creatures and fighting for their rights, fearlessly! It seems in such an environment, every gal has to fight for her own rights. Rights do not come here as birth gifts. 

Criminal!

Some thought process over some reality bites and some genuine question-answer series and answers are almost universal.

Who is a criminal?
Why some people behave certain way?
How they chose their target?
What happens when they get caught?
How some professions help in cover up?
What happens when the protectors become predators?

Many questions over the process of becoming a criminal, then be it a petty criminal or some heinous criminal and answers are almost same. 

Analysis

Stopped Writing? Naah!

I did not stop writing. For some time, I just stopped the way of that venting out. When so many hawkish eyes are there to tear up each and every word of yours then probably you take time to understand things. When you are being snooped on 24hrs by so called security agencies/some people then you need time to understand the purpose of that snooping. Why and how this drama started? Why and how someone became so much interested in some gal?

Why this indirect fight is going on since almost two years on social site? Why that person has been devoting so much time on just one gal? Just one gal? So many questions are there and probably I have answers to some. A try to answer some of my own questions of this puzzle.

A flash back, August 2011, Anna movement, India against corruption protest, in front of CM house, was the most probable start point of this story. Many characters are there in this story. Some issues are more important rather than characters. Corruption! That's where story starts and  hopefully action, that is where I would like to end it. 

Hierarchy, chair game, dirty politics, ego clashes, gamble, casteism, genderism, stereotypes, hypocrites are there. There are security concerns, Human rights, privacy issues, civil rights and cynical power clashes. Love, hate, anger, disgust, so many angles of rainbow of human emotions are there. Care, share, cries, laughter pills, hurt, heal, deal, arguments, fights between old and new and drama of human relations are there. Such a short span of time and so many turns and twists. 

Indeed, life is a roller-coaster ride

Do whatever you can

To overcome different kinda tides

But do not forget to live, while you are alive! 

Stock-Holm!

Stockholm!

Gam-la-Stan Kinda West of Raj-a-Stan!